if you havent already seen, i have finally moved on to tumblr. :/ (sorry, xanga, you don't have an app for my fancy new android phone.) i guess this little blog is my way of getting closure for myself. i can't lie and say i don't think of you, because i do, a lot. i remember what it felt like to lean on you when we watched movies. and hanging out with you in the morning before i went to class, and after class. going to your house, playing with the dog. prom (even though we didnt even dance once). the beach, when you would come over here and endure so much crap from my family. texting all day even though both of our phones were prepaids. that feeling when we hugged; like two pieces of a two-piece puzzle that fit together just perfectly. and how i always linked arms with you rather than holding your hand, because our relationship was just quirky like that. of course. that was in the beginning. but i do miss those days. i guess the summertime reminded me of when we really got serious. and thinking of how you're sweating your skin off at band, and i'm grown out of it because i graduated. no, i'll never be completely over you. i know that. you were my longest (real) relationship. despite all our quirks and cons. i'll never forget what we had. i hope you wont, either. i just want to say that graduation day was both the saddest and happiest day of my life...
i wasn't happy about leaving regional. and all my friends who i'll probably end up not even remembering in the future. the place i learned my first instrument(s). and met my hero, lyndzie.
discovered colorguard, and indoor percussion. had two separate band families whom i still love with all my heart-- outdoor band and indoor percussion. but i remember, walking up to you and kasey, giving him a hug, and looking at you. and it was like all the hurt and hate that was in me ran away. i wasnt happy that you said sorry. because i know you did nothing wrong... i just wish i'd trusted that judgement way back when the speculations started. i was too afraid of getting hurt. but that's in the past... i was just happy that we were okay. which i dont know if we still are. it seems like every time i see you, you've gone right back to hating me. but i dont care. i guess that's all i have to say...
other than, i heard this song in the shower earlier and it brought this whole thing on. i guess i'll post the lyrics here for you.
Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
And remember, please remember me
And how we laughed and how we smiled
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me
Please remember, Please remember
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